A big change ahead.

Growing up in a family that was constantly moving around, interstate, i hated it as a kid, because it meant you were always like an outsider, the new kid on the block. Who no one knew, but you also never knew how long you would be staying there for, so you were always uncertain as to weather or not you should even consider making new friends.
Now in life when things feel like they're falling apart all I wanna do it gather everything up and move, and start fresh somewhere where no one knows me, but I can't.
A couple weeks ago my life was perfect, I had a good job, an amazing bf and was just enjoying life. But now things have changed, although I have been offered my dream job, one that I have been wanting to do for a long time. I just don't feel like doing it, see my boyfriend (well his now my ex boyfriend) lives in Melbourne. We grew up together, we were pretty much inseparable, that was until I moved to Perth 8 years ago. Over that time we didn't speak to each other and I guess we changed a bit. Which is expected I mean we won't stay the little kids we were back then forever.
But see I can't handle the fact that the only reason why I'm not dating my best friend anymore is because of the distance. I love him and I don't wanna loose him over something that at the moment seems so big,and hard to deal with. But I also know that I don't wanna look back on this moment in 5 years and say 'I lost the guy I loved because I wasn't brave enough to spread my wings and make a change for myself'
So I'm seriously starting to think that I actually want a new start, which would mean moving back to Melbourne, meeting new friends again, living on my own and finding a new job, I'd love to go tomorrow if I could, but I can't, I have to stay in Perth for at least a year so I can complete my post grad and be registered as an enrolled mental health nurse.
I know it would mean leaving behind friends that I have in Perth and moving away from my mum and sister which would be the hardest thing I'd ever have to do, but I guess sometimes in life you need to spread your wings and do things for yourself. Other wise you'll never get anywhere.
In the meantime though I have to convince myself that I can make it through this year and prepare myself for a huge change. I know inside I need to do this, I've always been my mothers daughter always hated being away from her but I have my other family in Melbourne, aunts, uncles, cousins, and life long friends as well, which has its bonus cause I can spend more time with them and make for the 8 years I've missed out on seeing them for.
I guess when you know you've found that one special person, you know you'd do anything you could to hold onto them.